Strings have snapped, I'm singled out...

I got tired of my strings being pulled so yeah, after two weeks of dwelling and being a miserable sad pumpkin squash I broke up with Ben. We tried. We both were pretty sure it wouldn't work out but yeah, felt like it and tried and yeah, we were right. Considering how after a little time Jon and I are able to talk again even after bitter times and silence, I'm sure we'll be just fine... especially since I didn't let it drag on this time *hoping* it'd get "better" ... so there's no bitter aftertaste. I just hope I won't get stupid about it or something... I just wanted my friend back and this wasn't working out for me since I was seeing him less and less and coming home miserable I had no one to cheer me up... maybe things'll go back to normal so I can stop being a lame turd and back to "yes. move on with life."

Jie's going to China for a month (mid July-August) for some program thing so I'm house sitting... gonna see if I can handle the kitties... and if I can? I think that we'd just HAVE to get a house together. It'd just make sense. Hardwood floors, automatic cleaner buggy, fat kitties lumping around, rooms far on either end of whatever home we get... it'd be much good. I'd bake yum yums, she'd clean, and like... Jon won't be renting so he may as well store his T.V. at our place and cook as well. Eh, he could shack it up down in some spare space too. Ca could too. Oh shit that would be so great. But again. This is all IF I don't die from the cats ;) ... or just die from the lack of cable internet. Yeah. She's on dial up. Yes, kids, apparently that still exists? Who knew...

I'm a brat. I know.

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